Posted By: Kolaven
New to Satanism - 12/05/17 01:42 AM
Don't know if this is a good reason or not, but I lost my mom to brain cancer about 2 years ago. Ever since then im just been drifting through life, not really caring about anything- I was living with no purpose. I've tried going to church, even looking and reading about other religions, but I haven't found anything for me so far. A friend said that this could fill that hole, i'd like to learn more about this but I don't know where to start. Any help would be very much appreciated.
Just start with reading The Satanic Bible by Anton Szandor LaVey.
If it's for you, you will know. After that there is a whole swathe of additional literature but there isn't any reason to delve into that until you've read the primary text first.
You can buy the Satanic Bible at almost any good bookshop - usually in the new age section. It isn't rare, don't pay any extortionate prices on the internet. Around 10 or 12 $$ is about it I should think, these days.
Sorry to hear about your mother. It takes quite some time to heal after such a loss -- remember that and don't rush into anything.
To be totally honest, I found the Theory/Practice
section of the official website to be hugely helpful when I started, and it doesn't cost you a thin dime.
I recommend you start there.
Posted By: truthsayer
Re: New to Satanism - 12/10/17 01:52 PM
I too am new to this idea. I did go to the website and read quite a bit there. I too suffered a loss some years ago with the death of my son. It is a much older wound and I wanted to pass on this bit of advice about loss. It isn't going to leave you, you will not be the same person you were before the loss, part of the grieving process is letting that loss integrate and become part of who you are. To do otherwise is to fight your memories of your mother and deny your pain.
I have not explored the Theory and Practice
section completely as previously suggested, but I have obtained and read The Satanic Bible by Anton Szandor LaVey. It captivated me, I saw myself in the pages. Read it, for you have nothing to lose, it is, after all, just a book.
I lost my father six years ago when I was in college. He also had brain cancer; a glioblastoma. At that time, I was a christian, so I prayed to "god" that if my father made it to heaven, he should fly a red cloud in the sky for his tribal name, Red Cloud, named after my grandfather's historic hero. I woke up the next day and not a single cloud in the sky. So I said fuck god.
A couple years later, I started exercising and dieting cause I was 315lbs. I would get up at 7 am to go jog, come back and eat breakfast, work on my art and projects, go do the Insanity work out, power lift, then some extra cardio on top of that. I lost 115lbs in six months. I visited my family and my mom's church family all praised Jesus that I lost all that weight. It wasn't Jesus waking up to do all that, it was me. That was when I made my true conversion to Satanism because from then on, I was in it for myself by myself.
I hope this helps a little.