Dreams, a great subject and interest of mine.
My dreams vary as far as subject matter. Mostly they are combat related dreams. I Have been a POW, shot many times, died (that bulloney of dying in your dreams and really dying hasn't (obviously) happened to me.
My dreams are very lucid and almost always from the 1st person point of view. In my dreams I do and react exactly as I would in my awoken state. Sometimes my dreams are so intense they stick with me for years, sometimes my dreams are hard to distinguish as to whether or not the event in the dream actually happened.
If I do have a nightmare, it is not a REM/ deep sleep dream (nightmare). I have what is known as sleep paralysis. I am dead awake. I cannot move, but I can sometimes utter a word loud enough to attract my wife's attention so she can move my body and give me the availability to get out of bed.
The sleep paralysis is a very scary event. Sometimes it is like having an "out of body" experience, esp if I just let it go and see where the fear will take me. But most often I find things most often only able to be described by viewing some of the things found on the movie site for The Ring
. These visions are very strange, but not scary, like a person with a Xiantic faith might see them as a burden of faith, or quite possibly a fortelling of the future.
I enjoy talking about my dreams esp the adventurous ones. I don't believe in the psychology of dream interpretation.
Also as I write this and scroll up to read what I have written, I seem to have dreams that pertain to the things I am most focused on in life also. (Though the combat mission dreams almost seem like a "deprogramming" of a past memory).
Like right now I am training for triathlons, this is a 3 part sport that requires you to swim for a distance, immediately get on a bike and ride for a distance and then run for a distance. My goal is to make it to Kona, Hawaii.
That event is named "Ironman" - it involves a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) swim (across Kailua Kona Bay), followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride (from Keauhou to Hawi and back), and a 26.2 mile (42.2 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island (from Keauhou to Keahole Point to Kailua Kona). I dream of speed and the wind all the time... almost like an indian visionary dream.
Those are the best.
One of the best way I have found to sleep and dream well is to make sure you are comfortable, not hot and have not eaten at least 3 hours before bed, esp a meal high in protien or spicy. Visualization and deep breathing can help with better relaxation, but most often the really crazy dreams come later on near the morning (or whenever you are nearing wake up time).
The greatest challenge is to to try to fight your dreams, become them while inside. Unless you are prone to hurting others or sleep walking you should be fine. And if at all possible stay away from sleep medications such as Ambien. I do take 2 Clonidine to help me sleep and if I experience vivid sleep paralysis I get up have a gulp of water, walk around and then take 10mg of valium.
**Note I do not condone the use of any drugs in my body.. but because of the intensity of my dreams, the sleep paralysis and my military background I have been perscribed these medicines by the Veteran's Administration in the USA.
Without being a "psycho" analyst, doctor of any kind I would note that from experience and from talking with others that nightmares can be caused from your lifestyle, fear and loathing or a misunderstandable issue in your life. If you find yourself stressed most of your waking day, this will certainly (must add sometimes) manifest in a bad night's rest.
Finally, around 06/18/06 I had a dream. It was a fantastic 3 part dream.(I will get to this later) In my past I had done things that I felt where rebelious in nature (well they were) towards the Xiatan belief system.
From burning pages of the bible while saying the Xian Lord's prayer backwards. To actually making a personal pact with the devil (in my mind I was selling my soul for freedom and happiness) (though strangely since that time, I have been always happy and felt free). I did not do any of these things as a teaching from any book or person's idea in my life. It was just how I felt.
For years I suffered with the guilt that I had committed a major mistake and as I ping - ponged back and forth between Xian faith to just forgetting religion all together... wondering how I would be judged, things worked out. I would say I have an above average life. But I have nobody to thank but myself and my family and my strong will to succeed under any circumstances.
The biggest thing I have learnt in life so far, is to always be careful for what you ask or wish for. You can pray all you want... as a Xian, but god will not reach down with his out stretched arm and save you from a loathsome, decietful and self destructive life that put you in a position to beg for some entity to cleanse you after you realized you F**ked up.
For instance a simple thing to take a heedful warning about wishes and desires are you will always get more then what you asked for. Or in most cases nothing at all. In my experience it boils down to focus and imagery. But say you wish everyday for a long life... people do it all the time.. but they live a long life and then sit in their hospital beds paralyzed... living a long life. With the good always comes the bad. That is the challenge of life.
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So... this dream.. this 3 part dream I had the first part was the past. In the past I sat in first person view on a beach over looking the horizon towards the east. The visualization and the colors where a silverish, almost amber color.. not your normal sunrise. This was my past.. and as the sun rose and I was shown that I had made the right choice for me and that segment of the dream seemed to go on forever, but patience paid off. The feeling I was given was a present. The present was that the things I did in the past were not wrong and there was nobody to judge me, but myself. I walked into the water..
The 2nd part was the present. In the present I was shown that on the right side my Xian beliefs were tormenting me. I saw decay in society, I saw suffering and insulting stupidity, caused by selfish and selfless people who hide in a herd of mental self destruction.
Suddenly I parted from this herd and I became my own God if you must. I became me, with no strings attached.. no guilt and a finishing note that I had my life, it was mine now and there would be obstacles but they would only be challenges.
Finaly, the 3rd part of my dream, this was the future. My future was a vast wilderness of serenity and peace. The kind of peace a warrior might feel visiting a battle ground many years later after having survived the most horrific ordeals in life... it was up to me to survive without the burden of other people's control... Operation mind crime.
Then I awoke almost in tears... I am proud to be a Satanist, to be one with myself. I feel sorry for those who live life expecting that no matter what they do, even if they do nothing in life at all.. they are in the Xian churchs' eyes sinners.. Xians are the ultimate sin, birth is the ultimate sin, for they have been created in thier God's eye and in their belief system tells them that no matter what, they will be granted ever lasting love and peace with thier god and this "Judgement Day" or apocalyptic scenero all the believers and redempted Xians will be welcomed into the gates of Heaven.
I really would hate the idea of wearing white all the time and strumming a harp! Esp when the party is downstairs!
We search for the truth
We could die upon the tooth
But the thrill of just the chase
Is worth the pain
P.S. I am sorry for tormenting the educated and well written people found amongst these forums. I try to spell check every word that looks out of place, but the length of my posts sometimes makes it difficult to make sure everything is neat and tidy. I just hope that if I have used improper grammar or spelling that you can over look that and see the story itself. In fact a good portion of the time when I hit the "Ok, submit" button it takes a little while to get back to the forum, in fact I sometimes fear that all was lost!