I have so many things running through my mind in regards to your intent to start this thread to what has essentially progressed to you giving your thoughts on CoS, Dr LaVey and Satanism in General.
You contradict yourself many times over and to me its seems that not only are you not a Satanist, neither a Pseudo-Satanist, nor are you even a parasite. To me you have portrayed yourself as a psychic –vampire with a psycho-syncratic idolisation of Anton LaVey & Satanic Dogma.
I fail to understand how you can seriously state literally that you disagree with the viewpoints of the current administration of CoS, yet harbour no negative feelings towards CoS, then furthermore state that you don’t think that your “worthy” or that your membership would be beneficial to either party as when you give your “word” to an organisation that you take it seriously and then jokingly ask for congrats and flowers and what not for being a part of an internet forum, made by Satanists for Satanists?
Are you for real?
Joining the Church of Satan
is a purely Symbolic gesture to YOURSELF, and an act of formally aligning yourself to the organisation that was created by Anton LaVey and which has continued to not only represent the tenets of the life-loving philosophy/religion codified by the good Doktor but which has through his personally selected “team of people”
(for lack of a better phrase at this hour after a long day), carried on his work and more in the last 10 or so years since his passing.
So in having said that you are not “worthy” am I right to understand that you are in actual fact stating that you do not consider yourself to be a rational hedonist and elite individual?
If you feel that then how can you say that you’re a Satanist in the first place regardless if you’re a member of CoS or not?
You also go on to say that you have issues with Satanists who quote the good Doktors work in such ways as others do in other doctrines.
Weighing it up against all that you have stated and the choices you have declared that you have made, without taking any steps to clarify any misunderstandings or grey areas for yourself first and foremost regarding the Satanic Philosophy & The Church of Satan
, while the tools are readily available to you for so long in more ways than one….
Would you not also be guilty of empty posturing and stupidity?
And again, you also mention about not wanting to pledge allegiance to a group (ie. CoS in this instance) and support them whilst you fear that there is no guarantee that the basic ideals shall stay the same and that you fear of losing your independence and free thought to them.
I fail to understand how the basic tenets of Satanism & the 5 point program as set out by Dr LaVey will ever change as they are the bedrock to our philosophy!?
I also fail to see how you will lose your independence and free thought in any way by being
a) A registered member of CoS, which is done out of choice and for symbolic alignment for yourself only
b) An Active member or part of a S.I.G. group, also done out of choice and within which you offer your own tangible services (in any which way you choose) to further the goals of Satanism/Satanic Change in life around us.
If you look at it all together as following rules and ideas of someone else, then you are not a Satanist in any sense of the word and are deluding yourself.
What use is a word of honour, if you have no idea what you, yourself are honouring??
Even without being a member of CoS, what have you offered to Satanism to be able to question CoS and the honour of those associated with CoS?
Furthermore down the track, you go on to say…
What would people say if they found out you were a card carrying member or you did something to tarnish the reputation of CoS.
It’s like a teenager hiding their smoking from their parents!
Why would you seriously care what people would say?
Are you living your life for you or for other people?
Are you ashamed of “being” a Satanist?
Is it your dirty lil secret?
I personally don’t think you could do anything to tarnish the reputation of CoS, any acts of stupidity would only tarnish your own reputation as you’re the one committing it and should you be committing an offence of sorts then rightfully CoS should shun you for not having the integrity of a true Satanist to avoid willing acts of stupidity and consciously committing the number one cardinal sin of Satanism.