Is being "REAL" on the internet really THAT important?
One might conject (since solipsism is one of the Satanic
Sins) that I am real, at least to the extent that there
is a force (whether encased in a shell of protoplasm, or
not) that has taken the necessary steps to produce the
words that have appeared on this post.
Is what you are asking Max Faust, "How does one adequately
or accurately represent themself in a forum where other
participants have neither prior knowledge or visual
confirmation of their presence; and are the messages
said entity is expressing, consistent with how they would
appear to you were they in the same room with you at
that moment: "Does the poster have INTEGRITY
What I would suggest Max Faust, is that what is real is not
nearly as important as what is useful. The words that are
read here (and the ideas that they relate) are much like a
piece of Impressionist Art: What you see, is what you get;
the greatest part of that coming from YOUR interpretation of
what you have read, and how YOU relate it to YOUR life.
Obviously, I am not a female meerkat nursing her pups; if this
were the case, I would probably be too occupied with foraging
in order to provide milk for the pups, keeping the home well
kept, and being on constant alert for possible predators.
Having said that, I have been as forthright as I possibly know
how to be:
I was once affiliated with the Church of Satan
(at least to the extent of filling out an application, paying
the required amount of money, and getting a letter of acceptance
and a membership card in the mail).
I was reckless in my pursuit of magic:
I had what I believe (to this day) to be
an involuntary OBE: I came into contact with something which
terrified the living daylights out of me, and I somehow managed
to snap back into my body.
Sending in my letter of resignation
was both stupid and thoughtless on my part.
I lost all concept
of rational thought, and simply reacted. I had become then
what I now detest: the herd!
What I had experienced, I would
compare to anyone who has had the distinction of staring down
the barrel of a loaded gun while they are being robbed: who
you are, and what you believe at that moment are GONE.None of this was the fault of the Church of Satan, in ANY way.
It is all on me:
I fucked up.
I was stupid.
I admit it.
It may sound psychotic to say that I have "taken control of
his body", but in my thinking, I am simply NOT the same entity
that I was back then. I am OLDER. I am somewhat WISER. And
I am still among the living-- this is what is MOST important
to me. SURVIVAL IS THE HIGHEST LAW.
For the record, the material that I was using at the time of the
incident was not published
by the Church of Satan
. It was a book by someone who identified
themself as Dr. Christopher S. Hyatt.
I think that this person is a wonderful author; and anything that
I may have experienced is certainly NOT his fault.
If I produce proof that I am a legally licensed driver, I pay
the funds necessary to buy an automobile, and then I take that
car out on the freeway and crash it (or more dramatically, drive
it off of a cliff), I don't blame the autodealer, and I don't
blame "God" or nature because gravity pulled the car towards the
center of the earth, making the car crash.
Acquiring the license; purchasing the car; starting the ignition;
putting the car in gear; and drivng (however recklessly) the
car off of a cliff are all willed acts.
"It's nobody's fault but mine."For the record, if there is any way that I can gain readmission
into the Church of Satan, then I would like to do this very much!
I can say, first and foremost, that the Church of Satan
the "Real Deal".
Magic exists (please use responsibly).
And that I am very happy to be alive. AND
I am most delighted and
honored to have access to this forum;
both with you Max Faust, as well
as the other Esteemed Members of the Satanic Community.
This is my experience; (to the extent that I can be deemed
a "reliable narrator").
If that is not "REAL", then I don't know what "REAL" is.