Iíve read virtually all of LaVeyís writings and every square inch of the CoS website. Iíve concluded my outlook on life is very satanic. However Iím currently in a predicament with my career and seem to be very indecisive of what I want to do with my life. This indecisiveness to me is very unsatanic. Iím not suggesting Satanists never feel this way from time to time but this lack of focus is making me wonder if it will be hypocritical for me to join the Church and seek active membership. I just think Satanists have a ďdynamicĒ that Iím feeling a loss for right now. Am I correct in my assumption and shouldnít join and seek active membership or have I overlooked something? After all ďto try is to lie.Ē Your input is appreciated.