Obviously it isn't exactly unheard of for people to become addicted to prescribed medication. Getting yourself off it is obviously something you need to do for yourself, and apparently it appears that is what you're trying to do.
It is a test of character. Always remember what Charles Bukowski said: "what matters most is how well you walk through the fire."
As long as you are not doing anything illegal the Church of Satan
isn't interested in your personal situation. The only concern would be if the effects of the medication were to cause behavioural problems that made you a pain in the backside for us.
Smoking cigarettes is up to you.
But yes, we unequivocally oppose the use of illegal drugs.