I'd say that this would generally fall under the "compassion" category but what you call it is less important than its content.
If you find that the ritual created by Magus LaVey and published in The Satanic Bible works for you, then run with it. However, it's likely that you might have better luck purging yourself of anxiety if you modify his ritual or go back to the drawing board and create your own.
Do you earn a decent living at your current job? If so, once you have thoroughly "cleaned house" in your psyche via ritual, in order to keep from going back to that state of anxiety, just consider yourself lucky to have a job that allows you the time and financial stability to do what you love doing AS A HOBBY. Often, this situation is even preferable because there is no pressure or constraint from your employer forcing your hand and you are free to follow your passion in any way and at any speed that you wish. The advantages to this, creatively speaking, should be obvious.
If all falls into place, however, you might still wind up with that dream job. Here's wishing you a successful endeavor!
Edited by Mr. E. Mann (04/10/14 03:15 AM)