I hope you don't mind if I get a little bit sentimental here, Magister Nemo, but I spent around a decade communicating with you and following your posts, and even listened to several audio presentations you gave, and it's almost choking me up a bit that yours is the first message in reply to my attempt to reconnect with the COS. I've been up front and honest about everything, so I hope there's no suspicion of subterfuge. I was once an extremely active user by the name of Dark Passenger, and I was kicked off many, many years ago, frankly, for my inability to manage the politics of socializing on a discussion site, rather than any root differences with anyone. The reality is that I was simply immature in dealing with discussion online, and instead of correcting some aggressive posts, I chose to double-down and lost--as was right and proper, because I was wrong.
Having managed a discussion channel elsewhere with over 77,000 followers, and having spent all day every day for at least two years, posting new discussions and having aggregated over 4,000, in addition to all the administration involved, I've finally matured enough to feel I'm ready to get back in touch with the people whose minds I've always valued most, who have had inexpressible influence in my life, and mostly, who I feel, emotionally, most at home with--and most importantly, do so gracefully, respectfully, and without all the immaturity that is typical of those in their first years of relationships created through text on discussion sites.
Getting back to the topic under discussion, Latin does offer me an enormous ability to "feel like a Magician." It is a great irony, that from all the influence I gained from the COS in general, and your and other users of LTTD in particular, much of it was the radical focus on simply being sincere and think individually. I say this because there is so much invoked self-deception in the world, necessitated by economy, that escaping into lies is the norm.
New development I've gained as a Satanist, over the years I've been away, have really shown me the gains in opposite terms, which is the development of fantasy life, while anchoring to reality, and departing the fantasy state any time I want. A little generalized, and probably crazy sounding, but I don't want to necessarily hit up my old friend with tombs of writing on my first post in re-introduction.
For what it's worth, I feel the pragmatic, practical, hard-bitten realist is kind of old news to me, and these days, I divide my time, from waking until sleeping, in constant discussion in analysis, but then departing analysis for fantasy, then stepping back into reality.
It's become almost military drill and ceremony for me as far as routine goes. Even Westworld's programmers would probably find me incredibly formulaic, in terms of the Satanic dualism of indulgence in radical fantasy, but absolutely practical reality, and entering and exiting states with formulaic precision.
I feel an impulse to share the effects of countless years of mental activity with you, as one I've timelessly admired in the past, but I'll control my impulses, and simply say that even if I never get further than this post, as far as being permitted back into the pack, having some correspondence with Magister Nemo is going to be something I hold onto for a while and just feel great about.
I hope your Temple of the Vampire is doing well, sir. I look forward to your further communication.
I'll say good day, and also hope that you'll carry my very sentimental and good wishes to Magus Gilmore, Magistra Nadramia, and other long-time users who I spent years in constant discussion with, UVRay, reprobate, Svengalli, and many others.
At any rate, I thank you for permitting me this limited presence back into reintroduction. If you feel it appropriate, I would be delighted to have more access to the downstairs area, but I'm not pushing for anything. I'm very happy to just be back at some level, and having offended long ago, I know my place in the formulae, and happily accept them.
I am grateful for re-introduction, and I am smiling, as Rod Serling might say, "with a smile that stretched beyond the stars." I will be delighted for any links or suggestions you may have for further contact, and I am quite at your disposal for more of the same.
I can offer what I feel to be of value, but I would also be greatly interested in the progress of the COS over the last decade, and clearly, I have a lot of reading to do, when I consider all the output most likely effected by yourself, by Clergy, and by other Satanic thinkers. I would be delighted for your guidance in my new studies of COS progress over the last 10 years.
Deepest respect and greatest affection, dear Magister Nemo. Your reply has really made my day sir!
LIBERTVS A VOLGI TYRANNIDE
Freed from the Tyranny of the Commonplace
Freed from the Tyranny of the Vulgar