You are either a Satanist, precisely as codified by Dr. Anton Szandor LaVey most especially in The Satanic Bible, or you simply are not. There is no debate about it, and there is no two ways about it.
There is no room for compatability between the Church of Satan
and spiritual organizations; we are in fact diametrically opposed to all such organizations.
If you find that this is not suited to you, you are invited to leave of your own accord. But do not spread seeds of sedition with "are there others that share my concerns," lest you find yourself uninvited more forcefully.