my mind can't just seem to accept the whole magic thing.
The only thing that I will add to the other good responses that you have got is this:
If your mind just can't accept Magic, there is nothing that anyone here can do to convince you otherwise.
Also, you are not likely to find anyone here who will try to convince you that Magic is real.
What you will find is that most Satanists like proof.
Just because I tell you that Magic is real will not prove it to you. Reading about the infamous Sam Brody curse will also not prove anything to you.
The only way you will find proof when it comes to Magic is to test it out and see. That way you will not have to rely on belief but you will have working knowledge of your conclusions.
However, if you have already made your mind up, without testing it, you are welcome to your beliefs, just don't expect your beliefs to be validated.