You have to decide what is the most important to you.
Is it self-expression?
Is it being able to help out the kids?
Is it having a place to live, period?
Is it having a comfortable and peaceful place to live?
Priestess Rice and Pig are correct that if you utilize Lesser Magic and change your appearance and approach a bit, you may be able to dispel the notion that you're a bad nasty Satanist.
"Gentlemen, the verdict is guilty, on all ten counts of first-degree stupidity. The penalty phase will now begin."--Divine, "Pink Flamingos."
"The strong rule the weak, and the cunning rule over all." HS!