I've worked as hard as I intend to without being rude. I have given you adequate suggestions and even an out.
so, what the Hell is it you want?
You want to discuss your new Satanic feeling? Great. Discuss it in the forums.
You want a private conversation? Well, assuming you have the availability of pm's, if anyone resonated with your posts they'd probably pm you.
Those three things I listed demonstrated something I don't think you get: Each Satanist is an individual and therefore each Satanist has a unique perspective. You may find 100 who share some aspect of your experience and another 10,000 who don't.
Please state clearly what it is you're looking for so I can clearly tell you what we have in stock!